It's over, my marriage is officially a "Legal Separation"...we are both free to live our separate lives....
Its a weird feeling, I know I should be happy, this is what I wanted. Yet, feeling happy is not how I feel.
I feel sad, discouraged, angry, and strangely numb.
Sad, for destroying 34 yrs of marriage...
Sad, for destroying my husband and family...
Sad, that my life has come down to this...
Discouraged, because I did not set out to ruin a marriage.
Discouraged, because I could not stop the freight train from coming head on...
Discouraged, because I am constantly letting people down...
Angry, at the brain tumors and brain trauma that caused this...
Angry, that I cannot control my thought patterns and emotions..
Angry, that I seem to hurt everyone I care about....
Strangely numb, in that I don't care if I live or die....
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