and its back...trying to infiltrate my mind....
Depression is the enemy
it tells you,
you are worthless,
ugly, stupid,.
You don't deserve
happiness or to even live...
Depression is a nagging
in your head, saying
"fuck you piece of shit"
Its so hard to ignore that voice,
when its screaming in your ears..
you can't sleep,
can't think clearly
can't concentrate, and your heart pounds.
everything you do or say,
is wrong, comes out wrong,
sounds wrong..and there is not a damn thing
that can be done to stop it...
No way to "get over it"..
you either push thru or say "fuck it, I am tired of the fight"
and you surrender...
I've just discovered I have D.I.D. Its not easy for me or my alters. As you read these blog entries, some are by me and some are by them. Each one us expressing a moment of joy or frustration as we learn to adapt to our new life and flood of bad memories.
Friday, October 5, 2018
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