Multiple Meningeomas....

In 2014 or so, brain MRI showed six more tumors...7 total.

In 2018, brain MRI showed nine tumors, making now 10 brain tumors...multiple meningeomas....

They are spreading...crowding my frontal lobe...making me even more fucked up than I already am..

My confusion is getting worse, even being able to distinguish my right from my left hands is getting difficult, especially if I am aggravated or upset...

I can't start something new, without first being shown how to do it, then I can do it...but in my head...I can't figure it out...
I can't even tie a rope knot, start the knot, without help...once it is started I can add to it...

I am like a child having to be taught even the most basic things...turn left...WTF??? 

If someone is talking and they get too detailed, my mind shuts off...I can't process what they are saying...too much information overloads this shit brain and I become stupid, disoriented, confused, tired and zoned out...

I forget every goddamn thing...I am also starting to drop stuff...literally, my hands forget I am holding something, or they don't completely grab hold and secure an object...almost like they forget what they are suppose to be doing.

when I walk, I cut corners too soon and slam my feet, shoulders, hips into cabinets and door frames and anything really I am trying to navigate through or around...

I am monumentally clumsy..for a former gymnast that is a hard pill to swallow...a literal bull in a china cabinet.

It is very embarrassing for me...I try to make excuses...oops, I guess I better slow down, oops, I need to pay attention,  oops I forgot, I am getting old...oops sorry I didn't mean to say or do that...oops  oops oops....

But in reality, my brain is fucked...crowded with insurgents trying to infiltrate and destroy what is left of the playing field...my mind.

I am disappearing from who I am...like a person with dementia or Altymers disease (yes that is misspelled and spell check would not give me the correct spelling)  but I am not sick with any of those types of diseases..My frontal lobe, left, is being infiltrated with invaders who are taking over and crowding me out...

How long before I am completely gone??? at this rate, not long...