In my head,
I tell myself,
I am ugly
I am a bad person
I am a loser
everything I do,
is wrong...
everything I think,
is wrong,
everything I say,
is wrong....
I feel like,
a fool
a fake
a non-person...
I cannot accept,
love
encouragement
praise
compliments
they are all lies...
In my head...
positive words
only create doubt,
fear, anger..
I hate myself
I hate my life
I hate my feelings
I hate my body
my mind
my soul....
I can never accept love,
because love does not exist,
In my head....
I've just discovered I have D.I.D. Its not easy for me or my alters. As you read these blog entries, some are by me and some are by them. Each one us expressing a moment of joy or frustration as we learn to adapt to our new life and flood of bad memories.
Sunday, May 6, 2018
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