leaving Memphis

So today I leave Memphis Tennessee...I will take so many memories with me....I just hope these new memories don't leave my mind....I don't want to ever forget my Memphis visit.

I am even somewhat sad to be leaving...Because it is another chapter I am having to close in this weird life of mine....but today I will be starting another chapter...I am headed for Alabama...I have never been to that state (at least not that I remember), I will stay there for 4 days, then head off to the east coast.  I have brothers there that I need to see and talk too...

I have friends in other states that I am wanting to see and talk too...

I thought I would be so lonely on this trip of mine...but I am not.  I am "free"...I feel so bad for John, my husband..He is not free...he is shackled to a woman who no longer wants to be with him...A woman who doesn't even remember marrying him and giving birth to his children...A woman who does not love him, a woman who is not even sure what love is anymore...

I am searching for myself on this trip....I am starting to learn new pieces of my life that have been hidden...my new mind is forming new opinions, morals, whatever and it is both exciting and scary at the same time.   My mind is so open...to new ideals, new places...a new me....

I want to live my life to the fullest...I want to be alive, before I die....